i wonder if you know what it means

The lady (I thought she was the landlord but turns out that’s someone else) who gave me the key to my unit in this crusty fourplex smelled vaguely …

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losing touch with everything we can

I’ve been in a funk lately. Maybe it’s because nothing’s happening. Or I have nothing to do. Or I’m not doing anything risky. Or I’m not sticking …

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This time, baby, promise I have learned my lesson

(4/1/2022) If you ever heard me pining after a man I was desperately obsessed with sometime in the past eight months, know that I figured out …

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when my mind is uncertain, my body decides

My emotions have been shot. I’m sick. Like, actually. I have a cold or something. On top of that, within the last two weeks I have experienced all …

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when the bones are good

A homicide unit showed up at work yesterday. A girl was murdered on the Strip last Friday, walking from one of the bars at around 2 AM, and the …

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I never thought I’d see the day I’m drinking almond milk

(1/2/22) There are some people I know that are really good at being human. Honestly that’s the type of person I like most. People who live …

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Everything I sing, I sing for me

(12/10/21) I’m still throwing a lot of spaghetti at the wall, to see what sticks. A habit will always beat an idea. I told myself I would …

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I piss away my money on this bourgeoisie coffee

(11/14/21) Sometimes it feels like I have chronic diarrhea of the brain. Like I don’t know what’s going to come out of my mouth when I’m not …

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Can’t force a moment, can’t create the divine

(9/10/21) A few weeks ago my dad told me that cows only face north or south when grazing. We were talking about which direction you’re supposed …

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This is how I spend my life up

(7/13/21) Whenever I’m driving home from work at like 2 AM, I see the worst traffic accidents. A few weeks ago I saw two cars flipped over, like…

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Taking out the trash

(7/27/21) I was working the other night and ushering people out of the venue the way it’s usually done—by standing at the door and saying “bye” …

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Feel my muscles hug my bones

(6/30/21) This chick asked for a piece of my taco when I was at work the other day. She said she just wanted a little bit, from the back of it, …

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You won’t get what you want

(6/23/21) There has been a mosquito living in my room for the past four days, and honestly I was a little annoyed when I kept seeing him (at the…

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find something to do, and then do it

Too many people underestimate the significance of having nothing to do. The paralysis of having to choose something to do forced me to realize that…

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